I didn’t want to flip out like I did. However, if I go in to controlled environments I am going to flip out.
That is just a fact of my life. As much of a fact as me having an out of control God complex.
I do have a good Dad. Here is why I am grateful for him?
He taught me how to use a computer.
He he studies the Donald Trump God Complex with me.
He helped me mainstream. <— Even though I was still very much special needs. (I wanted to screw with neurotypicals. I am 100% serious.)
What I am upset with?
The willingness to give me a pain pill that could give me kidney issues. (I will take them when I am desperate.)
Pushing high functioning labels on me. I am not high functioning… I am highly intelligent. I am also miserable regardless of circumstance and quite often lonely…
Not teaching family members how to communicate with me Digitally so I can express emotion, understand the conversation & have the same awareness of truth.
Autistic Queer people don’t often get Business Diplomas. I was miserable the entire time I worked on mine. I did it to help the family. My heart is with the Multicultural arts. I am in love with something the family creates a void for…. I even have a subscription to Curiositystream
I don’t think you appreciate how much easier I have tried to make you coming to this family. I thought you did once. Now I feel like everyone is just forcing their emotional entitlements on me. I am Autistic and I can’t relate to your emotional entitlements. so I do not connect with emotions the same way you all do. I feel like that has never been properly acknowledged. I AM IN PAIN!
To remedy what I feel like has been injustice, I played a trick on your son Matthew Clarke. I sent him an Autism Hardcover book and I bought myself the audiobook version. This is because he has to learn way better self-management. He is driving me up the wall!
Just because Matthew Clarke was once functional enough for the military. Does not mean I am. I have tried to tell this to Tracy Gerdhardt many times. I have been rehabilitating a poor high school education since I did my victory lap. Then I have done a study in Advertising, Digital Marketing and Business. I have been struggling with my education level. Meanwhile your kids have only been stressing me out!
On top of this I have been secretly studying law through politics. Click here to check out the Candidate I endorsed for the Green Party of Canada. I have been doing this with Autism + Concussion and an overwhelming case of Amnesia. This is not fair. I would like you to use your education to remedy the damage that has been done in my family as a result of my Giant Tiger injury as soon as possible. If not I am not trusting you guys ever again.